I find more and more lately when dealing with my illness that setting goals, even very small ones, helps me get through the day. I have just changed one of my medications. I start taking it tonight at bedtime. Once again into the unknown country………still, as frustrating as life can be at times I am grateful for the moments of joy I have had, and hope to have more of in the future. As they say, it can’t rain everyday. Been raining alot lately though to be honest. Mania has been really bad. Anger, anxiety, irritability, forced/rushed speech. Some depression stemming from dealing with the mania and aniexty. Plus my ocd is rearing it’s head again.
Some good news, I have my surgery for my left hand next week, for carpal tunnel. I really am hoping that this new medication helps. I’ll know soon enough. Peace
I haven’t touched a “computer” in over a year now. Love my tablet and phone! My niece has a laptop that upon starting up would show windows booting up, then the screen would go black, with just a little bit of backlit light. I have to say I had forgotten how to troubleshoot to some degree. This is why I love Youtube, lol. So now I’m in wait and see land. Factory restoration time baby! !!!
First off its been quite a while since I’ve had this delicious dessert. No, this isn’t a picture of my cannoli. I ate mine already. Mine was chocolate dipped, and had no chocolate chips in it. Still, I’d forgotten just how sweet they are. I believe I’ve mentioned before that I believe it’s the simple joys that make life better. For me…..this is one of them. Another one was I saw my niece yesterday and she asked my opinion on something important to her. Feels good to be trusted and have your opinion valued. It really does seem at times that the western world has gotten caught up in the lie that to be happy you need xyz, when really all you need is to appreciate the good you do have, learn to be content. If you desire something work towards it, but do not make it an idol, for if you do, once you obtain it, the desired thing, or outcome will never be as sweet as you imagined, never as satisfying as you dreamed it would be. Learn to be content. Then when something you desired finally comes to pass your joy shall be increased, not diminished.
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Who remembers the Breakfast Club movie. Seems like forever ago. I could never have imagined the world today from then. The world seemed so innocent to me in that time. I realize it was not now, but it seemed magical, full of promise. It still is, but the veil has been lifted. I’m waiting for a better promise.
HE royal feast was done; the King
Sought some new sport to banish care,
And to his jester cried: “Sir Fool,
Kneel now, and make for us a prayer!”
The jester doffed his cap and bells,
And stood the mocking court before;
They could not see the bitter smile
Behind the painted grin he wore.
He bowed his head, and bent his knee
Upon the Monarch’s silken stool;
His pleading voice arose: “O Lord,
Be merciful to me, a fool!
“No pity, Lord, could change the heart
From red with wrong to white as wool;
The rod must heal the sin: but Lord,
Be merciful to me, a fool!
“‘T is not by guilt the onward sweep
Of truth and right, O Lord, we stay;
‘T is by our follies that so long
We hold the earth from heaven away.
“These clumsy feet, still in the mire,
Go crushing blossoms without end;
These hard, well-meaning hands we thrust
Among the heart-strings of a friend.
“The ill-timed truth we might have kept–
Who knows how sharp it pierced and stung?
The word we had not sense to say–
Who knows how grandly it had rung!
“Our faults no tenderness should ask.
The chastening stripes must cleanse them all;
But for our blunders — oh, in shame
Before the eyes of heaven we fall.
“Earth bears no balsam for mistakes;
Men crown the knave, and scourge the tool
That did his will; but Thou, O Lord,
Be merciful to me, a fool!”
The room was hushed; in silence rose
The King, and sought his gardens cool,
And walked apart, and murmured low,
“Be merciful to me, a fool!”
Contacted my MD but haven’t heard back about whether I can increase my Gabapentin for restless leg syndrome. Now I probably won’t hear anything till at least Monday. I went ahead and took an extra one regardless. I may not be a doctor, but in the absence of mine I researched it, and spoke to my pharmacist about the possible side effects. It made me relaxed, unfortunately still not sleepy, but at least I’m not twitching. Sigh. God is good.
P.S. I finally heard back from my doc. They called in a higher script and I’m making a early appointment Monday. God is good.
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Rediscovering good music from my youth. One of life’s simple joys
It’s the little things in life sometimes that make us happy. Love of your family. An unexpected simple gift. Someone waving you ahead in traffic. A quiet moment to yourself in the middle of a busy day. I like simple joys. I find appreciating the simple joys, the moments of peace, and acknowledging them make the greater joys that much better when they occur. Peace